Pretty white lies

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Thanks to whoever! For my genuine kindness is being appreciated. I didn't know I would be of great use one day. I was never a good consoler, never a sweet tongue, never a successor in whatever. Yet I feel proud I have someone who finally feels what I have to offer. ''You are too kind, too kind that people often takes advantage of you!" Is being kind wrong? I have done too much...too much that no one seems to bother much. Too much that my kindness doesn't seem genuine enough. Someday, you will feel my love and I'm always there. I was the one who helped during your last minute work, and how was I treated? I was the one who brought hot milk all the way from my house when you felt sick, and where were you when I felt sick? I know I can't wish for people to treat me the same as I treat them. BUT, didn't they know how hard I was trying to maintain this strong bond between friendship. Perhaps one day you might remember who was the one who showered you with unconditional love when you were in deep shit. 

When I was asked to draw a portrait of someone, I knew you would be the one. The only one who would allow me to. The one who would sit there quietly and let me observe your big eyes, your gelled hair, your "ridiculous" smile, your wrinkles, every little details of you. I know you will.

 

and I know you'll be there. 

You're my only motivation.

She's just so enlightening.

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2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit / food.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

Remember those days when we sat together and discussed our goals in life. But is it really important that we have goals in life? people do change and when they grew older, and will they still stick to the same goal as before? We were really innocent for once I thought. Or perhaps naive. Does the thought sadden you a little? We once had common goals but now we went separate ways. I try to make sense of our goal. Or at least, I used to. 
I always wished I could have the little genius brain of yours. So that I could be a Somebody. You told me how fond you were of me.Yet somehow we drifted apart, we tend to view things in a much more different perspectives than we used to. You told me I was no longer the usual me, I told you that you had changed completely, so much that I couldn't recognise you. But dont we remember how we clicked on in the beginning, at least we trusted each other and exchanged secrets, we had a lot in common. Is our goal still important if I cant walk down the rest of my life with you? Or do you even bother to dwell on our beautiful pasts? You are so rash, so impulsive, so sensitive. I no longer know how to talk peacefully with you. We are different, so much different...

Do you live in fear? Fear of losing the person who you hold so close to your heart?
Do you want someone to hold you in the arms and say those three magical words that will heal your heart immediately? 

Sch starts tmr, gonna be more challenges ahead :( Stay strong!

What? LOST? You may not be surprised because this is not the first time. I hate getting lost but somehow after one and a half hour or so walking aimlessly, we got to our destination. The fareast plaza. I know you'll be laughing at me right now because it's such a common and easy place to find! :( :( but i was born lack of direction sense, every place will seem so unfamiliar still even if i have been there for the 100th times (except for my home and school) Ohhwell. This is so extremmeee! dear friends, I'm sorry to keep you waiting when I got lost or boarded the wrong MRT. AND this is partly due to STM (short-term memory).
I haven't even touched my homework today. Do something please.

can't wait. Chess is lending me the twilight series!

Never been like this before. last night was full of dreams, no not dreams, I dont know if I even sleep at all! Those words lingered in my mind for so long. So sweet that I wouldn't bear to close my eyes. I smile...

''If he treat you nicely, you will do anything good to him in return. You care about him and give respect, you do things secretly for him. Then, you will make use of any possible ways to give him surprises.'' The foolish one.

sometimes I wished you never were a part of me... I even wished my past never existed, so I could save the effort of explaining myself now.
Dont interrupt me now, not this time!
Yes, I need time to settle down. I need to get my eyes fixed on IDS/VDS/OC/HCD/CRS assignments, assignments and assignments again! No more thoughts at unusual hours.
and I had the best Friday anyone could give. it was more than just a lost trip, more than fun and definitely much much more better than my cheese on nachos! :D:D:D

you dont need to read this, this is more for me. Five years down the road, I'd still feel moved reading back this entry. I'm glad I have you. I can honestly say I look up to you. I'm not sure why, but I do. I've always wanted the best for you.

...years waste away with our impossible spacing

C = crush
and the love bug is bitting me real hard this time!
At least life is getting better now, don't mess up my day!
Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then.